The Stress Is Too Much (Narcissa|Evan)

[NARCISSA I'M A BITCH BLACK]

Narcissa hastily wrote something down on a piece of parchment. Her tears dripped from her eyes and it made her even more angry at the situation. She hadn't been this upset in such a long time she could barely think long enough. Evan was the person she needed to see. Her and Rabastan had gotten in a fight once more. Once more. It seemed like lately all they did was fight. He was accusing her of keeping secrets from him. She promised him she wasn't, but she was lying and he knew it. He'd almost dumped her before she yelled for him to go fall off a cliff and ran off. Sitting in a dark area of the corridors she wiped her tears off angrily. Rab always knew what to say to piss her off and to make her cry. That was one thing she hated about him. He also seemed to think she had something with Lucius Malfoy. Sure he was incredibly hot and came from a very powerful family, but that wasn't what she was looking for. Over and over she would tell him that he was the one she wanted to be with, not Lucius.

Rab never seemed to believe her and accusing her of keeping secrets had only made her more upset. Narcissa never kept secrets from Rab. Well, not never, she usually didn't. But there was one secret that she couldn't tell him. Every part of her being wanted to change that, however, she knew Evan would kill her. She just knew it. The secret those two shared was one that neither of them could tell a single soul if they wanted to keep living their lives like they were now. Everything would change, she knew it, Evan knew it. But, right now, right here, it was all she could do to keep herself from running into the Great Hall and screaming that her and Evan had murdered someone. That they were partners in crime and had never told a soul. Always kept it locked inside deep down where nobody could find it.

Dropping her quill she buried her face in her hands willing her tears to stop as she didn't even reach down to pick it back up. Wiping at her eyes again she looked up around hoping to see Evan walking down the empty corridor. Slowly she reached down picking up the quill putting it, along with the parchment in her bag before slinging it around her shoulder. Writing him a note wasn't going to do any good, anyone could read that and they'd have to go through the process of burning it and that was always suspicious no matter who was burning something. Straightening her shirt and her hair she wiped her tears once more shrugging off the thought that her make-up was smudged. She didn't care, it anyone chose to say something, she'd put them in their place anyway.

Taking a deep breath she walked out of the corridor. She'd ditched her current class, that she actually had with Evan, to go talk to Rabastan. Worst idea she'd ever had. But at least she knew where Evan was. He was the one person she wanted, no, needed to talk to right now. Sighing she hid around the corner as she heard students starting to get up from their desks. Glancing around the corner she hoped Evan would turn this way as he left class. As soon as she caught a glimpse of his she twisted around the corner grabbing his arm tight in her hand as she didn't even stop walking starting to drag him behind her not even looking at him as she tried her hardest to get out of the vicinity as soon as she could without catching too much attention.

[EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER]

Evan stared at the empty seat next to him with slight curiosity. Where the hell was Narcissa? He didn't have to ask himself that. He'd heard Rabastan in the great hall going on about her. Which really pissed him off. He put two and two together and now sat there even more angry. He'd beat the hell out of Rab once he got the chance. Unlike every other pansy in the school he liked to use his hands. Magic was great to have but not for every situation. People sometimes needed to get some sense beat into them instead of charmed into them. He felt what he wanted them to realize stuck better when they got their faces broken in.

As the class dragged on, his irritation built and he just sat there, staring at the table, hands clenched into fists in his lap. "Mr. Rosier. Is there an issue? Need to go to the hospital wing?" the professor spoke out and his head shot up and shook back and forth. "Sorry." he mumbled, focusing on the board. The slanted writing held no interest for him. He unclenched a fist to grab the quill and start writing like he was taking notes when really he was composing a letter to Narcissa. To inquire about why in the world she wasn't there.

His mind drawled on about all the nights she came back to the dorm hiding tears and refusing to talk. He hated that. A lot. There was one thing about the two of them that bode true. They could tell each other anything because hello, they killed his parents together for christs sake. It was hard not to be close after that. He wanted to kill Rab for the load of bollocks he talked to her all the time. Lucius was all for Narcissa but she wasn't for him. As far as he knew, and he knew a lot, they weren't even talking about getting together. At all. It was completely ridiculous.

Finally, class ended and he gathered up his books as quickly as possible, stuffing them into his bag with utter frustration. He was stopped by the professor, again. "Mr Rosier. Come here, please." He did as he was asked, placing a small smile on his face. "Yes professor?" he hooked the bag on his shoulder, looking at the man steadily. "I'm worried about your attention span lately. May I suggest talking to someone about what may be bothering you? It's unhealthy." Evan cocked his head to the side and quickly came up with a lie."I've not been sleeping well lately. I think I'm getting ill. I'll go speak to Madame Pomfrey about it when I'm finished with all my classes. I'm sorry about that. I'll try harder tomorrow." the man nodded and dismissed him.

When he turned around he smirked wide and walked down the aisle between desks, hand grasped around the strap on his bag. When he exited the room, he immediately looked for Narcissa to his left but was distracted by the grab to his arm and the drag down the corridor. He gasped and stumbled behind her, batting at her hand. "Bloody hell Cissy! Don't have a damn mardy! I was in class! You weren't. Oi! Will you slow your roll?" he exclaimed, grabbing her and yanking her back.

The hall they'd ended up in was completely devoid of students, but the pictures on it were full. He turned her around toward him and stared down into her face. The look of shock and irritation changed to one of worry. "What happened, Cissy." he stated. A question was not good enough because she could avoid answering him. He wouldn't stand for that. "I'll kill him. Did he hit you?" he started to search her face, his hands shaking a bit.

[NARCISSA I'M A BITCH BLACK]

Walking part way down the hall she took a deep breath trying to calm down a little. As he turned her around she let go of him wiping at her eyes looking down. She knew instantly he'd know something has happened between him. "No I won't slow my roll Evan! I can't do this anymore. The secret. I have to tell Rab. He knows I'm hiding something and I'm sure he knows I'm hiding something to save you!" She screamed at him leaning back against the wall shaking her head. "I have to tell him if I don't want him to leave me." she whispered softly looking down crossing her arms in front of her chest.

Shaking her head she kept her gaze steady on him. Trying to smile a little."No, he didn't hit me Evan. Stop thinking he'd do something like that." She whispered softly rolling her eyes reaching her hand out to hit his arm lightly. Her hit was kind of pathetic which made her bury her face in her hands thinking back to her fight with Rabastan. She couldn't bring herself to tell Evan he'd dumped her until she stopped hiding things from him. "He's giving me an ultimatum to tell him what I'm hiding. Evan I seriously have to tell him. I can't hide it anymore." Feeling the familiar tingling sensation she looked away and up to stop herself from crying.

"I know I promised I wouldn't tell you. I know I promised it'd always just be between you and me. Partnets in crime. All that crap. But I don't want to lose him Evie.. I can't." Looking back down she slid down the wall bringing her knees to her chest wrapping her arms tightly around them. Resting her chin on her knees she sighed heavily.

"I'm sorry Evie. You're probably going to hate me. I know that. I'm ready for you to yell and scream at me all you want. But I need to tell him. I need to tell someone. It eats away at me. All the time. I'll randomly think about it and just it makes me want to just scream it out. Scream what we did." She said softly closing her eyes. Leaning her head back against the wall with a soft thud she felt the tears sliding down her cheeks as she looked up at the ceiling. "It's hard to live without him Evie.." She trailed off softly taking a deep breath closing her eyes.

[EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER]

He was shaking. He was shaking and there was anger building up in his chest. It was like a lion, clawing at him. Trying to get out. Wanting. His hands balled up into fists as he listened to her and then his started to ring. Stress like none he'd ever had before came down on him like a tidal wave and he paced back and forth in front of her. He wanted to scream. He was going to. He knew it. She knew it too, he could tell. "GOD DAMNIT NARCISSA." he reeled on her, hands tight at his sides. "SHUT UP! JUST SHUT IT!" his voice echoed off the stone with a vengeance. When he realized this he stepped closer to her, dropping his voice to a low growl.

"I swear Narcissa Black. You can not tell him. It won't be just me that goes to azakaban for this. It will also be you! Then what?! You can't live without him but you will be forced to! I can't believe you've even thought about this! What the bloody hell is wrong with you?! He's a piece of shit, to be honest. He's constantly finding something to bitch at you about. Always! He walks all over you and you can't live without him? That bullshit! You'd do better to be away from that rubbish."

He pulled his hands through his hair, beyond pissed at this point and that was when he noticed her tears. Damn. What about Daniel? He paced again, trying not to look at her. He wanted to be angry. He wanted to be yelling and screaming at her to get it into her head that she couldn't tell Rab. DAMN HER. Damn her for crying. -He walked up to the wall opposite her and kicked it, rubbing his forehead and taking a few calming breaths.

He hated when he was ticked and then suddenly he changed his mind. It made him seem hypocritical. He did not like that feeling. One bit. He turned around and sighed heavily, all the angry gone from his voice as he spoke next. "I've been needing to talk to you, Cissy-boo." he knelt down in front of her and reached out, brushing his thumb along her cheek to remove the tear and make her look at him. "Trust me, this pertains to this situation. I've been thinking about asking Daniel to be...my..boyfriend. You know. Not just..a one night thing and yeah yeah, before you say he's straight, I already know. I've talked to him but..I'm still gonna try because..I might possibly love that boy." he covered his face and then dropped his arms to his knees, resting them there.

"Which brings me to my next point. I may not like Rab. I may or may not want to hurt him beyond repair. But it's not fair for me to make you hide anything from him. So...just...try to be discreet. Tell him...tell him somewhere where no one...not even a portrait will hear you. No one. And you better trust him not to throw me in prison for it either. Because he loves you. So he won't turn you in. But he will probably do that to me and not think twice about it. If you can at least..I don't know, explain why we did it. Don't mention the Dark Lord though. For hells sake, do not."

He paused once more to take another breath and sat down on his butt, resting his forehead in his palms. "It's only fair that we tell our other half. Should Daniel become mine...I will tell him. Maybe not right away but I know I will. I've hid far too much from him already. That's the difference between you and me though. You don't like hiding things...I do."

[NARCISSA I'M A BITCH BLACK]

Watching him pace she shook her head feeling the tears flowing freely from her eyes. Just from his actions she knew he was going to blow up on her. Tensing her body she closed her eyes tight resting her forehead on her arms waiting for him to do just that. Hearing his screams suddenly she jumped and looked up at him with fear in her eyes. She knew he wouldn't hurt her, she wasn't worried about that. This reaction was really what she expected, but she was hoping it wouldn't be this bad. Refusing to meet his eyes she tried her hardest to stop her tears as he spoke to her. He hated Rabastan, absolutely hated him. A lot of her friends did because he wasn't good to her, at all. He was quite awful to her sometimes, but she couldn't help but want to be with him and call him hers. Slowly moving her eyes over to meet his she frowned slowly loosened her body.

"Evan.." She started quietly before stopping unwrapping her arms from her legs. Sitting there quietly, she had no idea what to say to make it better. Narcissa knew she couldn't tell Rab about what they'd done. He'd tell everyone about Evan for sure and use it against her even more. It was stupid to want to tell him so bad, but it was part of loving him. Though, in all reality, she knew she couldn't tell him and keep Evan out of Azkaban.. If Evan went to Azkaban, she would too. The guilt of Evan taking the blame would eat away at her and kill her. It'd make her feel absolutely horrible and she couldn't handle that kind of pressure by herself. It would make her turn herself in eventually and the whole plan would backfire. It wouldn't be worth it in the end.

Suddenly hearing him kick the wall she was torn from her thoughts as she looked at him, her expression changing to worry. This was something she should have kept to herself, it would have eventually gone away. She knew she could lose Rab over this, but if she told him she'd lose everything.. and so would Evan. That seemed worse than just losing Rab until he decided he wanted her back. Sighing a little she moved her hair behind her ears she bit her lip looking up at him as he had his back to her still. Blinking away a few more tears she continued to watch him noticing his breathing change.

Hearing him speak, she noticed his voice change back to normal. As he kneeled in front of her she looked at him confused keeping her head leaned to one side. Closing her eyes as he touched her cheek she sighed softly slowly opening her eyes to look at him trying to get her heart to stop beating as fast as it had been since she opened her mouth the first time. Hearing his words she instantly looked up at him her eyes shooting open as she stared. "Does Dan-" She started before he continued slowly nodding her head. "You're sure about this? Does he even know how you feel. I mean, yeah everyone's heard the rumors and he's been acting differently lately.. But are you sure he's going to be okay with this?" Shaking her head she smiled a little letting out a small laugh. "What made you love that womanizer? What do you mean more than a one night thing, have you guys done things?" She asked as she suddenly got curious grabbing his arms tightly pulling him back swinging them lightly as she smiled at him.

Hearing him continue her smile disappeared as she talked about Rab. Shaking her head she closed her eyes leaning back. "He'd throw you in. He knows you and I are holding something back. He knows we have a secret. It's something he'd completely use against you. I can't handle you going to Azkaban. I'd end up turning myself in and losing both of you.. I can't handle that Evan." She said reaching up to touch his cheek softly. "Until I know I won't lose either of you, I can't say anything.. I know it'd backfire and I'd end up heartbroken." Looking down she shook her head leaning back against the wall.

Laughing a little she shrugged. "It's not like I don't like hiding things. I get upset when it's used against me. I have no problems keeping things from people. But not when it's turned to blackmail.. that's when I cave. I'm not as strong as you. I wish I was. Daniel deserves to know.. But just know he'll overreact and call you a twat. That is his thing when he's upset." She said laughing once more closing her eyes. "Evan, how did I ever get into this position with you?" She said softly keeping her eyes closed.