EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER
slytherin
You can't resist me. I'm temptation wrapped in a pretty box.
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Post by EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER on Dec 30, 2010 17:03:18 GMT -5
What time was it? He knew it had to be past noon. Damn Saturdays always messed the boy up. He groaned into the pillow, wondering why the hell there was only one. His frazzled head lifted from the cushion and peeked over to the floor. Ah. He must have had some sort of night terror. Or..day terror. Whatever. Evan's pale hand ran through his big hair in an attempt to fix the mess. With a yawn that cracked his jaw he rolled from underneath the covers and stood straight. Another few cracks emitted from his back before he grabbed his wand to do the lazy routine. Clothes were fixed, along with the hair and the make up. Finally his brain started to work and he decided that first he would get some food, then maybe take a stroll around the school. Possibly to find some trouble, or something to take up time. Now that he was officially parted from the three girls he'd been with, and also the secret that he'd never reveal, he had a lot of time on his hands and not much to do with it.
The descent down to the common room was quick and easy. Of course it was full. He avoided the gazes of some of his fellow seventh years but glared at the lower years. He hated the ones who thought they could buck up to the older generation and win it. It was hilarious to say the least. He tucked his hands into his pockets and perched against a wall away from everyone and their accusing stares. He rubbed at his temples, staring down at his crossed feet. He changed his mind on the food bit apparently. His stomach was too busy churning inside of him. Today was going to be a long one, even though it was halfway gone.
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Post by DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES on Jan 1, 2011 22:49:42 GMT -5
IMAGE GOES HERE YEAHHH? -------------------------------------------------- . i can see you stalking like a predator , i've been here before, temptation calls like adam to the apple But I will not be caught, Cause I can read those velvet eyes . all i see is lies, killing my emotion, i will not be frozen, dancing is my remedy ! --------------------------------------------------
Sitting up quickly Daniel looked around for a second trying to figure out where he was. Instantly he leaned back against the wall holding his head. "What the hell?" He asked closing his eyes tight. He was in the Astronomy Tower. Then everything rushed back to him. Last night. Evan. The alcohol. Everything, including the secret Evan told him. Shaking his head he groaned slowly starting to get up. He needed to change and the only place that was possible was in the common room or his dorm. He'd have to face Evan sooner or later. He just wish he wouldn't have to. It would all be awkward now. Taking a few steps he took deep breaths hoping the pounding in his head would subside, but it wouldn't. He was thinking about too much, trying to figure out too much. Luckily coming into the common room the next day wasn't entirely uncommon for the Slytherin boy, it was almost normal because of his womanizing ways.
Daniel quietly walked down the steps to the Slytherin common room. He'd literally spent the rest of the night after his talk with Evan in the Astronomy Tower. His mind still raced from the talk and he had no idea what to think of the world he had suddenly been thrown into. 'Thanks Evan, you twat. What the hell am I supposed to do now?' He whispered angrily to himself as the common room door opened. As he strolled in, he put a huge smile on his face, usually this smile indicated he'd had his way with some girl over night and was just strolling in. He knew everyone would think that, everyone but Evan. As he walked past the few in his year he glanced up seeing Evan leaned against the wall. The smile on his face instantly disappeared. Keeping his eyes on the man against the wall for just a second more, he instantly turned and walked calmly to his dorm stuffing his hands in his pockets awkwardly.
He'd promised he'd forget about what happened the night before. He'd promised, but there was something that made his mind reel nonstop from what had taken place. His headache had only gotten worse since he'd woken up. Pushing open the door to the common room he changed quickly glancing at his hair. "Teeth.. Good. Hair... Beautiful. Cock.. In. Fly.. Up." He said smiling triumphantly at his morning routine. Some of his dormmates thought it aws awkward how much he talked about his cock, but he didn't care. He loved it. He thought it would make him famous. That and his graceful height. Staring at himself conceitedly in the mirror he pushed his hips out grinning like an idiot for a few moments. "Damn, I'm ready for my day now!"
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tagged to: Evan / word count: 447 / wearing: School robes / notes: Slytherin common room and Daniel loves his own cock. / header image to: Me / lyrics: little boots / template by: COMMUNIST DAUGHTER?! @ CAUTION 2.0
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EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER
slytherin
You can't resist me. I'm temptation wrapped in a pretty box.
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Post by EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER on Jan 1, 2011 23:05:11 GMT -5
A presence stirred him from his stupor, and his head started to tilt up slowly. He couldn't meet Daniel's eyes. Not because he was ashamed of what happened, nor why it did, but because he didn't want to see the hate that was probably in them. Murmurings began around him about how quickly his friend's smile had faded into a grimace and he kicked the wall with his heel. "Shut it aye! You dolts wish you knew him. Stick your bloody comments where the sun doesn't shine!" he stalked up towards the dorm directly after his little outburst, shocked eyes following him all the way up.
He hated people. Just...all of them. They all had something to say about something and didn't know how to keep it to themselves. They were tools, the lot of them. His hands shook as he opened the door to find the male dressing himself. He crossed his arms over his chest and waited patiently. Listening. His gray eyes went in and out of focus from lack of paying attention, and also far too much sleep. The night had been something like a horror film, minus all the gore and murder. He shouldn't have been complaining about people talking. Lord knew he did too much of it himself. Just enough this time to ruin a friendship. Or that's what he felt like. He wiped the frown off his face and replaced it with a smirk.
"Are you sure your ready for your day? You forgot to paint your nails. They're looking a little dull lately." he stepped over to the side of his bed and sat down on it, almost too heavily. Like he wouldn't be able to keep up his wise cracks for much longer. Or like he just couldn't stand his mouth for them.
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Post by DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES on Jan 1, 2011 23:58:16 GMT -5
IMAGE GOES HERE YEAHHH? -------------------------------------------------- . i can see you stalking like a predator , i've been here before, temptation calls like adam to the apple But I will not be caught, Cause I can read those velvet eyes . all i see is lies, killing my emotion, i will not be frozen, dancing is my remedy ! --------------------------------------------------
Daniel glanced into the mirror seeing Evan walk through the dorm door. Sighing softly he shrugged. "I look perfect. I'm always perfect. My nails don't need to be sexy. The rest of me makes up for it." He said moving a few strands of curly hair to their respective places. Daniel couldn't help but notice the frown on Evan's face. As he glanced from the corner of his eye he watched the frown turn into a smirk. They were both acting like nothing had happened. That's what Daniel wanted, or at least that is what he thought he wanted. "Maybe we can have a nail painting party. Since you're so interested in one." He said putting a half-smile on his face glancing at his friend through the mirror.
Something inside was screaming to wipe the smile off of his face and tell Evan to do the same. But he knew he'd never say anything. The tension in the air was already thick to begin with. "What got you all pissy looking down in the common room on your way up here? Not like anyone bugs you really. I think most people keep their distance." He said straightening his clothes before turning around crossing his arms not noticing his smile fading away. He couldn't even fake the normal smirk ever since he got back into the common room. He figured Evan would have been gone, not standing there with everyone else. He really didn't know what to say, but his rambling would surely let Evan know he couldn't forget about it.
Looking down at the ground he sat heavily on his bed looking at Evan raising his eyebrows. Holding his hands out in front of him he leaned his head to the side pouting a little. "Now that you've mentioned it my nails are so atrocious. You've ruined my nail for me. Are you happy now?" He asked pouting more standing up in front of him sticking one of his hips out putting his hands on his hips. "I simply can't be seen with nails so awful looking." He said smirking once more at his own actions. "Are they really dull? I was more worried that my eyes were looking dull from sleeping in the Astronomy tower." He said moving back over to the mirror playing with the skin under his eyes. "My face has to be perfect. It's what wins the lovers over for me." He said absentmindedly before turning back to Evan crossing his arms once more.
Moving back to his bed he sat back down sighing as he looked at his friend on the other bed. "The Astronomy Tower is the worst place to spend the night, but by the time I got up there I couldn't get myself to come sleep in my own bed. What kind of shit is that?" He asked knowing he was trying too hard to keep the conversation going. He knew he overreacted initially yesterday, He knew it all too well actually. But it was against his own beliefs to apologize, it showed weakness. Even to Evan. Apologizing is something Daniel would never be good at, then again, he didn't want to be good at it either. However, he'd never felt worse about something.
Being in the Great Hall when he started his hissy fit, he knew more than just Lucius had heard him. Who knows who else could have heard what was going on, Daniel hadn't exactly been very quiet about it. What would happen if he had ruined Evan's reputation? Sighing he ran one hand through his curly hair before resting his elbows on his legs looking at Evan. "Look. I overreacted in the Great Hall yesterday. S....." He started grimacing at himself unsure if he would go on. "Sorry about that." He said quickly looking away at the wall hoping there would be something interesting there.
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EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER
slytherin
You can't resist me. I'm temptation wrapped in a pretty box.
Posts: 39
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Post by EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER on Jan 2, 2011 0:55:23 GMT -5
Evan had listened to the ramblings of Daniel before he'd sat down on the bed. He knew that smile was fake. It was as fake as attitude. There really wasn't any point in trying to play it off like any other day. He didn't even understand why he was trying. Everything that could have ever been said was and there was no turning back. "You are just as conceited as I am." he'd commented. "Yeah sure. How's pink sound? I think it should be really bright. Bring out your eyes quite nicely." He felt like he was walking through molasses as he sat upon the bed. It was just so..tight in the room. Much smaller now.
"Nah. They make comments under their breath like I'm deaf or something. I wish they'd grow some balls and learn how to speak at my face." he snorted as a hand ran through his hair. It wasn't easy trying to keep up with the conversation. Yeah, his reputation was pretty much screwed. He liked the fact that people were scared of him. Now they'd be all over him. It wasn't really Daniel's fault though. He deserved to freak out like he had and Evan knew that better than anyone. He could have done the lame thing and stayed wasted, and gone. It was now in his head. Probably a good idea. He felt like he should be in the dog house or worse.
The Slytherin had to shake his head at the next few words. It was too easy for him to make a gay comment at that. He probably would have if he hadn't thought that he didn't want to make the oxygen leave the room. "They'll flock to you like they always do. Dull eyes or not. I don't think they care about your nails much." he retorted, lifting his head to look over at the other. He planted a grin on his face and added a wink before shifting his position. He wanted to jump into a vat of boiling water.
"Yeah I know. I don't like sleeping their either. Makes you want to kill something in the morning." he didn't want to say much more on that matter. He'd woken up some time in the middle of the night to find that Daniel was not there and it made him incredibly depressed. He wouldn't dare go out looking for him though. Just because of the whole messed up situation. He should have steered clear and been the one sleeping in the place. Should have never lifted himself off that floor and came back to the common room. There was no stopping fate though. It was an unstoppable force and the better thing to do was go with the flow.
His face tightened up with his chest when he spoke and he shook his head. "Don't...you had every right to freak out on me. I don't blame you. I'm not even angry...I was just angry that you wouldn't stop to talk to me about it first. I don't...god. I don't want you to hate me for this, Daniel. I sound like a damn twat right now but it's the truth. I don't know what I was thinking when I said that. I just...got tired. I've been getting tired a lot lately." he went silent and didn't look up, just stared at the floor. He wasn't sure if he wanted an answer. He played with his hands, wringing them around each other. They acted like his stomach. Twisting together. "Just...it's not easy to forget that. I think that maybe you should hate me. It'd make it easier on you. I don't want it to happen that way, but what the hell."
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Post by DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES on Jan 2, 2011 1:46:52 GMT -5
Daniel shook his head as he knew Evan could tell how fake his front was. He didn't even care, he wanted things to go back to how they were before Evan's confession. Rubbing his eyes roughly he nodded. "They're speaking behind your back because they still are afraid of you. Everyone knows you're not afraid to hex them. That's a well known fact. I know you'd never hex me, so I'm not afraid to fuck with you." Gasping pretending to be hurt he shook his head. "I can't even hide how conceited I am. I'm so shallow it's ridiculous. I only date and screw the hottest girls out there and then I get bored as soon as I get them in bed. I mean, come on. I'm just as bad as you. No wonder we're so close." He said shrugging slightly.
Glancing around the room he pulled at the collar on his shirt realizing he'd never been happier to be alone in his dorm with Evan. It didn't happen often, but if anyone else was in here the tension would have gotten so unbearable that Daniel would have had to leave. "Someone will get the balls to stand up to you and say something about you liking me. Then they'll get hexed or just punched in the face, whatever comes first." He said laughing a little as he shook his head. He hadn't realized how hot he felt sitting in the room. It was weird since their dorm wasn't even hot, it was actually rather cold, but he felt like he'd been thrown into a volcano. 'Maybe it's the awkwardness..' He thought to himself looking down at the ground moving his hands to his lap playing with his thumb not even thinking.
"That's what bad about girls man. They just flock to me knowing I'm amazing at pleasuring them. I wish someone would just put up a fight." Sighing he moved around a little on the bed to get comfortable. "I love the chase. That's all if amounts too. If I go after someone and they tell me in my dreams, it makes me want them so much more. But no one does that. It breaks my heart that my Irish accent gets everyone too. I mean, come on, what is that. It's just how I talk!" He said throwing his hands up in the air in frustration.
Scratching his neck awkwardly he leaned his head to the side looking at the pillows on his bed. That bed had never looked more comfortable than it did right now, even though it was early afternoon. He couldn't tell Evan how long it had taken for him to fall asleep sitting up in the tower practically pulling the hair from his head as the events replayed through his mind over and over. "Maybe we should hide some blankets and pillows up there since we both seem to be up there so much." He said letting out another forced chuckle as he played with a loose thread on the blanket. Even when Daniel woke up looking out of a window in the tower he'd contemplated not even returning to the common room. He knew Evan would be somewhere in the Slytherin's domain. But he'd hoped maybe for once Evan would be eating or being somewhat normal.
Glancing up at the other he took a deep breath, exhaling slowly as he closed his eyes tight. "Just, do me a favor next time. Got something as life changing and shit as that, do it in private. Don't make any comments to suggest something, because really, you know I blow everything out of proportion. Make sure we're alone next time you want to drop something like that on me. I may just punch you in the face, but I'll calm down." Loosening up Daniel laughed a little shaking his head. "That's my word. You can't steal it like that you twat." He said smiling a little easier now.
After his friends' next words, Daniel got a look of concern in his eyes. "Tired? What do you mean? I didn't know hiding every single detail about who you are could make you that tired to admit to liking a guy... No offense." He said looking back down at his hands. "How could you expect me to want to talk to you? I mean come on, you just let everything out there when I was eating, I was hungry and had instantly lost my appetite. I didn't know what to do or think that didn't involve making a bigger scene than I did or just kicking your ass right there at the Slytherin table. You can't just hit me with something like that Evan. You know that." He said trying to keep his voice down as he looked across the small space at his friend.
Nodding a little he tried to think of something to say that might possibly make it sound better. "As much as I want to hate you, I can't. I'm used to being the heartless twat that fucks a girl and then just disappears pretending to not know what happened. But you're not some random girl I had sex with Evan. You're one of my best friends. I mean, we share a dorm. Practically grown up together since we've been at Hogwarts. If I barely knew you it'd be so much easier... He said slowly trailing off. "Now I sound like a down right girl, but I'm used to having you around even after I realize that I have never known who you truly were until yesterday. Yeah it hit me like a train. But you're still Evan. My wing man. My pal. I couldn't hate you. I could pretend. I mean, yeah, I could make everyone out there hate you and pretend I did. But I'd feel like shit. There's two people I could never fuck over like that. Richard and you." He said before realizing he had been thinking out loud.
Looking down running both hands through his hair. "But I can't forget and just live my life knowing now either Evan. Cause if you're serious about what you told me, seeing me screwing and hitting on other girls is going to seriously bug you and eventually our friendship is just going to explode and get so bad that we will hate each other. I've fucked up enough relationships to know how it's going to happen. And the tension we've got going right now isn't going to make it easier or hide it from anyone else. Though I'm sure the whole school will know by now." He said pulling on his looking up at the ceiling. "I don't know what to think. Pretend it didn't happen unless we're alone. Or.. fuck just stop talking to each other. Not that that will be easy or possible. What do you think?" He asked shaking his head not looking at his friend.
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EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER
slytherin
You can't resist me. I'm temptation wrapped in a pretty box.
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Post by EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER on Jan 2, 2011 2:11:49 GMT -5
Shite. This was turning into a really bad intervention of sorts. Evan listened quietly, his heart stopping a couple times in his chest. The beat was uneven and unfamiliar. To add onto it, his head was beginning to hurt. The words cut something open in him and he didn't like it. At all. There was too much truth in how Daniel spoke. More truth than he could ever muster. Everything was out on the line and he knew he couldn't take the choice of ruining the friendship.
That would have been the easy way out of it. Stop talking? Yeah okay. "Look I'm sorry if you feel like I've let you down. You wonder why I am so angry all the time, and you may not have mentioned it now but you have before and I've never said why. It's because of you. Not that you've done it on purpose. It's...not you actually. It's me. I'm just a really f*cked up individual. I don't know who I am anymore. Or rather, what I am about."
He paused to breathe just as his heart did a hitch and thump again. "I can't breathe when you're around. Honestly, I feel like I should be loved by you. You're the closest person to me besides Narcissa. But I can't want her. It's like, I should right? But I can't. I tried to make myself want someone else besides you. It didn't work. God. What the hell man." he felt like slapping himself. "My heart broke so much. You were the only one who noticed it. The only one. I wanted to rip it out but somehow...you stopped me from doing it. Do you even know what I'm saying? My minds all over the place. I guess this is me saying all of it out loud yet it seems like I should be talking to a wall because you're straighter than a damn arrow and I'm just a bit bent. It's not even...fair."
He suddenly pulled his knees up to his chest and buried his face in his hands. His eyes squeezed shut as tightly as possible but he couldn't get the image of Daniel's face out of his vision. The look he'd had right after the comment in the great hall. "I don't talk to anyone because I find it hard to hold conversations. I get sick and I just wanna run. I wanna run so far and never look back. I'm fighting my flight response right now. I messed up. God I messed up so damn much this time. I don't know what to do. It might be so much better if we did stop...talking. I can move to another dorm. Avoid you. I'd do anything to make you comfortable..happier. Something."
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Post by DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES on Jan 2, 2011 18:10:46 GMT -5
Keeping his face in his hands Daniel let out a deep sigh. He hated relationship talks. Absolutely hated them. It made it even worse that this relationship talk was with Evan. The only time Evan and Daniel ever talked about relationships was to say the last girl they had taken to bed. Then it was a high five or a pat on the back. But not this time. Evan liked Daniel, a lot. Daniel didn't know what to think of this. He wasn't gay, or he didn't think he was anyway. It made the entire situation that much more awkward.
Shaking his head she dared not look over at his friend. "You didn't let anyone down. So shut up. But this.. This is too weird man." Evan's next words cut through Daniel making it hard for him to breathe. 'He's angry because of me?' Shaking his head he pulled at his hair keeping his elbows propped on his legs. "It's my fault? I did nothing out of the ordinary to make your feelings change. He said queitly keeping his eyes closed. "You're right. You are messed up you twat. But bringing me down with it? I don't know what to say. Part of me wants to punch you and walk off. Part of me knows I'd do it and then feel like shit."
Daniel felt his patience wearing off, he was trying to keep calm. But his emotions were all messed up. He hated sitting here awkwardly with Evan talking about this. He knew eventually they would have to get it over with though. Leaning his head back Daniel took a sharp breath looking directly at Evan. "You feel like I should love you? It's one of those brother things. I thought that was what was between us man! I never thought it turned sexual or into actual feelings. Was it something I did? Other than standing up to you? Did you try having sex with Narcissa? I mean, come on man, you're positive you... love me?" Whispering the last few words he shook his head.
Rubbing his eyes once more he nodded. "Of course I noticed. I'd never seen you like that before. It scared me to think you might disappear. As weird as it sounds, I need your dumb idiotic arse around. You tend to keep me sane. Even when it all seems impossible. But love you?" He didn't know where to go after that. He was surprised at everything coming out of Evan's mouth. It seemed like he was dreaming. Standing up he stretched lifting his arms above his head sighing. "Well after last night I've began to question how straight I am. Fuck I didn't even stop you or push you away. I can't get that thought out of my head. Evan, we're both dicks. It wouldn't work.. Something would go wrong. Everything would go wrong." Daniel said more to convince himself than anyone else. He always forgot Evan could see right through him. But he didn't care. He had to convince himself he wasn't gay. He couldn't be gay, could he?
Sighing he slid down the side of the bed sitting on the floor lightly leaning back against the bed. "Not talking is only going to make it worse for you. If we stop talking I can't even be there for you. You moving is only going to fuel more rumors about you and me. You know that. It's only going to make things worse for both of us. Time will fix this Evan. Bloddy hell, why am I being so understanding? Why can't you be one of the other losers in this house. It'd make it easier to get away from you. But I can't. You're like all I have in this hell hole." He said not making eye contact. "Don't run, then I'm going to have to take you down and drag you back here. We don't have to talk about it though. We can do something else." He said leaning his head back against the bed. "Stop treating me like I'm some emotional girl. You're my best friend. Suck it up and stop acting like I'm breaking your heart. I didn't walk away. I'm still sitting here with you twat. I'm the one who, even though you're gay for me and want my sexy Irish body, am putting up with you still. So shut up and treat me like you used too, or I'm going to have to break your heart and make you stop loving me."
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EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER
slytherin
You can't resist me. I'm temptation wrapped in a pretty box.
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Post by EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER on Jan 3, 2011 17:16:44 GMT -5
He was going to scream in a minute. That much he knew. This was too much, he needed air. And a lot of it. He slowly dropped his hands to the bed and took a few breaths while Daniel talked. He began to shake his head in disagreement at the 'break your heart' comment. That was not true. At all. He rubbed his face and stood up, tucking his hands into his pockets and putting on the mask of contentment. "You're not breaking my heart, Daniel. It's not even close to that. I already know what you're about and it's nothing near what I do."
His head was throbbing uncontrollably and his emotions were running a bit rampant inside of him. "I don't love you because of that Daniel. Jesus. I don't know why I love you. There is no reason behind it." he stopped to pace back and forth besides his bed, staring down at the floor. "I don't wanna know why I do. And truly, neither do you. You just really want something solid to grasp onto so you can wrap your mind around it. I hate to tell you, you'll be confused for a while. For once, I don't have an answer. Not even a smart arse remark either."
"Yeah we are. Total dicks. We fight like cats and dogs anyway, y'know. Wouldn't change. Not that it's important." He stopped pacing and leaned down, placing his hands on the bed, shaking his head back and forth. " You probably should though break my heart. I don't think it'd be possible. You're not gay. I'm not gay. I'm just...sitting on top of the fence, looking down at you and wondering if you'll ever join me up here." His back straightened and his arms crossed over his chest, eyes shooting to the door. Time to get out.
He stepped up to the door and grabbed the handle, taking another deep breath. "I'm going to get some air. This is not what I wanted from either of us. It's too much." he always did that. He knew it better than anyone. Running from a problem was always easier and he just didn't have he gall to handle the conversation for another minute. He squeezed his eyes shut for a moment and opened the door, looking back at him. "I...I'm sorry. " and stepped out.
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Post by DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES on Jan 4, 2011 22:09:39 GMT -5
Taking a deep breath he looked up at his friend. He'd never seen him look so confused or hurt.. It made Daniel a little bummed out. Frowning he watched carefully rubbing his jaw hoping to make it less sore since he'd been clenching it so tightly. Leaning back a little he shrugged. "What I'm all about? Damn, you make me sound like such an awful person." He said quietly before actually thinking about what he'd said. He covered his mouth trying not to laugh a little. "Look, just because I have a reputation, doesn't mean it's all I ever want to be. I don't want to grow up with people thinking I'm this complete man whore." He said biting his lip closing his eyes.
Watching him pace from the corner of his eye he sighed heavily. He didn't even want to ask anymore questions. They weren't getting them anywhere. Daniel was done talking about this now. It was getting too weird hearing Evan tell him he loved him and didn't know why. That was one thing he'd never experienced, love. It was also one thing that he never wanted to experience. Loving someone meant changing, changing that Daniel wasn't wanting to do quite yet. He knew he'd be confused until he had time to think. There was too much going through his mind still.
For once he thought talking was going to make him feel better. But he knew it was only making Evan more uncomfortable as well as him starting to feel even more awkward. "It's not easy to break someone's heart like yours. I've never broken a guys' heart let alone someone like you." He said softly looking down at the ground. "So you're wanting me on the fence pretty much being bi then. Not liking one only but liking both but choosing you?" He asked running his fingers through his hair pulling on it a bit.
Sighing as he heard Evan's footsteps he glanced up seeing him heading for the door. 'He lasted longer than I thought he would.' He thought to himself closing his eyes as tight as they would go so he wouldn't have to watch him leave. "You act as though I asked for this Evan." He said softly. Hearing him walk out the door he buried his face in his hands pulling his knees to his chest. The last thing he wanted was to see him leave, but he wasn't going to chase after him. He wasn't going to wait anymore. He couldn't. He wouldn't let himself get caught up in this more than he already had. He needed to see people so he could turn into his normal smart ass self. He couldn't handle being like this anymore.
Waiting a few more minutes he stood up and grabbed his back heading to the door. Walking out he looked around the common room for an empty chair. Upon finding one he glared walking past a few of his housemates and collapsed in the chair rubbing his forehead feeling the migraine finally hit him. It took long enough and he reached in his bag grabbing an empty piece of parchment and one of his books pretending to read through it.
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EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER
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You can't resist me. I'm temptation wrapped in a pretty box.
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Post by EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER on Jan 6, 2011 17:51:36 GMT -5
It was a long walk down the steps and out of that common room when you left all your energy somewhere else. It was hard for Evan to muster up anything really. Not even a scowl as a group of whisperers passed him and he heard what they were saying. "Did you hear? He's gay!" "I did! I also heard that he's been with like...a lot of guys all the time! He's dating one of them too!" He didn't comprehend why that was exciting. Even though it wasn't completely true. He just didn't have the gall to handle it. He knew he'd get pissed about it later and probably grab a random girl in the middle of the Great Hall and practically sleep with her just get the rumors under control. He'd probably get thrown into an empty classroom for a month and a half with Filch for it too.
"You act as though I asked for this, Evan." kept running through his mind. Like a record on skip. Wasn't that the truth. Talking was over though. There was nothing left to say. Maybe what he wanted was Daniel to tell him he was absolutely out of his mind. He did in a way. Just not outright. He should have though. That would have made him stop talking, long before the terrible "I feel like I should be loved by you." statement. The entrance to the upper floors greeted him with a swell of students, probably coming back from breakfast, or was it lunch? He didn't even know what time it was. The same time as it was yesterday at that time apparently. He rubbed the side of his face and turned, heading towards the courtyards.
This was all so damn tedious. He ran over the rest of the conversation in his mind, all backwards. Rewind and play. Over..and over. He paused at the door, leaning against the nearest wall and sighing softly. His mind jumped back to the night before a the moment when he pressed his lips to Daniel's. He growled and shoved through the door just as the memory went wacko on his emotions. The sun hit his face and a light bulb went off over his head. DING! Except, that light bulb was more a ball of flame light years above his head. "Jesus christ EVAN! What the hell are you doing? This is not you." he had a revelation and he turned on his heel.
Who the hell cared about his reputation? He would still have it. Him being bisexual didn't affect him anymore than if he'd gotten slapped by some random girl for grabbing her ass. He'd still do it. The tension in his body left in a trail behind him and he had quite the look of accomplishment on his face as he made his way back to the common room. His hands were tucked into his pockets and he busied himself with preparing a speech in his head to make the announcement of his bisexuality officially true to his fellow peers. Also, the feelings he had for his best friend. Eff it all. Not bothered.
The door burst open and he strode in, head held high and his shoulder straight. "Hello, Slytherins. Everyone should really listen closely right about now." he eyed Daniel and winked before looking around at the faces turning toward his general direction. "Get on with, Rosier! We have more important things to do." Someone said and he raised his hand before smiling. "First of all, eff all you lot. I am bisexual. Yes. I sit atop the bloody fence. Am I bothered? No. I am Evan f*cking Rosier. I don't give a bloody bit what you think and you can take this to your graves. Hopefully, you're lucky enough if I don't make you lay in them. If you have a problem with it, I wouldn't tell me. The first thing I will do is break your face. Then the rest of you. Also, I am sure that you all heard he rumor going around that I am in a relationship with my best mate. Untrue. I do, however, love him." he paused to take a breath and then stepped forward.
"Now, Daniel. Stop worrying about whether or not you are gay. Just shut it. Honestly. You're obviously not. It's ridiculous how whiny you are about it. Hell, we didn't having a necking session. So it's not even a big deal. Having a bloody fit. Come off it. Finished." he now addressed everyone else once more. "I am now headed to the Great Hall, where I will grab the first guy I can reach and I will make out with him in front of the whole school so people will stop whispering. Really. Feel free to follow. Touch me with intention of making me bleed or broken, I will kill you with my bare hands." with that he inclined his head and turned around, heading out of the room. He did not flinch or tense up in expectancy of a hit. He didn't care. He felt so much better. It was no longer a long walk to the said area. Went by much quicker. He did not check to see if anyone followed either.
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Post by DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES on Jan 16, 2011 18:41:00 GMT -5
Running his fingers through his hair, Daniel used every last reserve of strength he had to continually stare at the same page of the book. Ever since Evan had walked out, Daniel couldn't stop thinking about everything that was said between the two. 'I feel like I should be loved by you.'[/color] Everytime those words played through his head, he shivered at the thought. Overreacting was something Daniel was good at and he knew he was overreacting to everything right now. But he couldn't help it. He was irrational. It was just who he was. He'd never dreamed he'd like a guy, let alone Evan Rosier. They were both such womanizers and usually even worked together, but now. Talking about getting together? It was all beyond confusing and it made his head hurt more than even schoolwork. Schoolwork gave him the most ridiculous headaches, so this had to be bad.
Taking a deep breath Daniel leaned his head back and closed his eyes tight knowing people in the common room were talking about him and Evan. Part of him wanted to get up and punch all of them, but he knew he wouldn't. It would just fuel more rumors and piss him off more, then he'd do something really irrational and possibly hurt Evan. That was something he couldn't do. Truthfully, he couldn't even be mad at Evan. Evan was doing what he always did, get a thought in his head and just go with it. No matter who he dragged with him. He didn't care. That was just Evan. The thought made Daniel smile a little. He always knew how crazy Evan was and he was always dragged along in his little adventures, but it had never been anything like this. Usually just getting girls back into bed. Sighing softly he tried harder to look at the page in his book knowing all too well that it was impossible. He knew he should give up and find Evan, but he didn't want to talk. Daniel knew he wouldn't want to talk about it.
Sighing heavily he closed his eyes tight setting the book in his lap as he rubbed his eyes roughly trying to get rid of the headache that kept creeping in on him. Adjusting his position he looked around the common room to see a few heads quickly turn away as he made eye contact. Rolling his eyes he was about to get up when the common room door flew open. As Daniel laid his eyes on Evan walking through the door he raised an eyebrow. He looked completely different than when he'd left a little while ago. Confidence covered his entire face as he walked into the room and called everyone's attention to him. Staring at him he raised his eyebrows watching him carefully gripping the book in his lap tighter. 'What are you doing you bloody twat.'[/color] He thought his heart starting to race faster and faster as he stood there.
Closing his book he set it back in his lap as he watched Evan starting to talk to everyone. As he started to talk, Daniel's eyes widened and he started to slowly shake his head. 'No.. Evan don't..' He thought to himself slowly starting to panic. He didn't want anyone to know, they couldn't know the actual truth yet. He wasn't ready for them to know he'd thought about liking another guy. As he took a step forward Daniel sat up straight in the chair his jaw dropping as everyone turned to look at him and a few people started to snicker. Feeling his temper starting to rise he narrowed his eyes as he looked at Evan. 'Who do you think you are saying crap like that to everyone here!' He thought as his temper flared. He didn't know what to do. He wanted to just punch him in the face, he wanted to just admit that there might be something there. This whole thing was just too confusing! It was making Daniel get anxious and even more angry.
As Evan turned to walk out of the common room, whispers and looks of disgust were shot in his direction. Looking around for a second he sat there in awe debating whether to follow him or just go back to his room and plan a prank for him. Taking a few more minutes to decide he suddenly made up his mind. Throwing his book back in his bag and grabbing it, he ran out of the common room running to catch up to Evan before he made it to the Great Hall. Looking around frantically for Evan on the way there he ran his hand through his hair quickly turning a corner seeing Evan farther up. Pushing his way through a group of girls he ignored their comments and ran after Evan. "Evan! You're moving too bloody fast! Would you just stop!" He yelled after him still running following him slinging his bag over his shoulder.
Breathing heavily he finally reached Evan grabbing his shoulder pulling him around to face him pushing him up against the wall. "You say something like that and then just walk away? What the hell man." He said breathing heavily. "I really need to quit smoking. This is ridiculous." He said closing his eyes trying to catch his breath. His temper still flared as he went over Evan's speech in his mind. "What was that you twat! What are you thinking? Don't drag me down in this anymore!" He said angrily pushing harder on his shoulders. "Why do you keep just adding to the situation you twat! Don't you even care how any of this shit is affecting me! You have no idea how easily you've just tipped my world upside down!" He said glaring up at his friend. "I mean damn it Evan! You need to start thinking! You may not care about your reputation, but I do!" Feeling his hands shaking as he held him against the wall he shook his head feeling the pounding in his head getting stronger.
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EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER
slytherin
You can't resist me. I'm temptation wrapped in a pretty box.
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Post by EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER on Jan 22, 2011 13:47:04 GMT -5
Evan was crazy. Everyone knew that. He didn't think on that accusation seriously until he was strolling down the winding halls, through the throngs of students, on his way to probably make a huge mistake. He was always selfish. Never thinking. Quite reckless. He had paused for a mere second to lean against the wall, taking a deep breath. He really didn't care about his reputation anymore. People would forget once something bigger came along, they always did. Soon enough it would all blow over and it'd be...normal? What was normal anyway. That was when it hit him. He was always pulling people with him. No matter what he did. Like he couldn't ruin his own life alone. Narcissa, Daniel. I was always with someone else in the mix. "Damnit."
He shrugged his shoulders, starting to walk again. There was nothing he could do to change anything. Tampering with memories was too dangerous, also something he really didn't have skill in. At all. He'd only heard and read about it. That was no good. He thought that maybe the speech would make him feel better. In a sense it did. There was no more hiding, but it felt like he had just costed himself a friendship. He shouldn't have added the last bit on. He wanted to hit himself for that.
People were staring at him, he could feel it. More so than he ever had. "What." he rounded on a group of girls who weren't looking at him in disgust. They smiled and giggled, waving. He rolled his eyes and waved a hand at them, turning away and continuing on his destined path. Not really sure what he would do when he got there. And..that was when he heard his name being called. He turned around just in time to get shoved against the wall. His breath left him in a gasp and he shoved back on Daniel, catching the breath he lost.
"Christ, shut it!" he growled out, pissed about the fact that his back now hurt. "Daniel! It's not like I can go back and be like, 'Oh wasn't that a great prank? Fooled you all.' As if they'll listen. There's nothing I can do. I can't say I'm sorry because part of me really isn't. There may be a small part that is. But really, the other one is over powering. Let me go." he said, shoving back on him again and looking down. His hand pulled through his hair nervously.
"Yeah we both should quit, but I doubt that will happen." he shook his head and dd another dismissal wave. "You can freak out on me later. I don't wanna hear it right now. I messed up. Okay. I know. If you're that worried, there's a gaggle of willing girls back that way. I don't think the news has hit them yet. Go fix your reputation."
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Post by DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES on Feb 16, 2011 18:52:09 GMT -5
Taking a step back as he was pushed, Daniel lowered his eyes to the ground keeping his arms against Evan's shoulders. "You need to start thinking before you pull shit like this Evan. You can't just expect to be able to do whatever you want! Especially when you're pulling me along for the ride. It's not fair to put me in situations like that, even after everything you've said to me." Feeling himself being pushed again dropping his arms to his side before stuffing his hands deep into his pockets feeling himself starting to shake a little more. Everything was too much. He couldn't handle everything that had been happening. Looking back up at him he rolled his eyes. "What reputation? You've messed that all up you twat!" He angrily replied trying his hardest to keep his voice under control.
Looking around nervously he took another quick step back biting his lip. "Everything's done now. There's nothing I can even say. Even if I were to go back and say what a twat you were, I'd still be known as the idiot who has a gay best friend that loves him. Then somehow it's going to get out that you kissed me." He said whispering the last few words. He wasn't even sure if Evan would be able to understand him. At this point, he didn't really care either. He should know, out of everything that had happened in the last 24 hours that was the one thing that he remembered the most. Evan kissing him. Quickly shaking his head he put his hands on either side covering his ears. "It's all I can think about! What have you done to me?" He said quickly pulling on his hair a little.
Opening his eyes he slowly dropped his hand back to his sides looking up at the male. "I can't do this. I can't be confused like this." He whispered not able to make eye contact with his friend. "I'm done." He mumbled more to himself than his friend. "Go ruin your life even more Evan. Just go do what you said you were going to do in the Great Hall. See if any guy will even allow you too. I don't care what you do anymore." Turning on his heels he lowered his eyes walking away from his friend. He didn't even know where he was going to go. Slytherin common room was out until at least everyone was gone or asleep. Then again he didn't even want to go back to the dorm room. Everywhere seemed to give him some memory of Evan and every second that passed made him want to just disappear. Without even thinking Daniel looked up and saw himself in the Astronomy Tower making him smile a little. The last few days he found himself up here more and more by himself. He just wasn't used to it. Leaning against the wall he slid down it pulling his knees to his chest resting his chin on his knees closing his eyes.
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EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER
slytherin
You can't resist me. I'm temptation wrapped in a pretty box.
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Post by EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER on Mar 7, 2011 23:28:36 GMT -5
A slew of curses left him after Daniel retreated into the crowd. For a while he stood there in the same spot he was left, looking down the hall as if he was expecting for his friend, and quite possibly the love of his life, to come waltzing back and laugh. Say he was kidding. That he wasn't really done. Hope in one hand, right? The problem was, he thought that making the announcement would be a good idea. Too bad he was terribly mistaken...again. He knew the male was right. Finally he let go of the breath he was holding and stepped off the wall. He had to find somewhere to go for a while. Away from everything and everyone. As he walked, his shoulders were heavy and his mind raced. Also, behind his eyes a piercing pain began.
He found his way up through the maze of corridors and stairways, until he reached the floor he knew to be the quietest and he wasn't likely to be found unless stumbled upon. His hand was firmly planted to his forehead as if that was going to stop the headache. Evan had done only three things in his life that he was not proud of, and they were running through his mind with aching clarity. Footsteps echoed off the wall as he made his way down, he knew if he turned to the left, he'd find the Gryffindor common room. If he turned right, he would come upon a wall. He took the right because he noted that most of his sworn enemies were down in the Great Hall, or practicing for Quidditch try outs, so not point in looking for a fight he wouldn't find. Unless it was the very infamous group of five rowdy boys, (who in another life and time he might have actually befriended.)
He reached the wall moments later and had to stop to think of exactly what he might need. A drink, a stiff one, that was for sure. He figured the room wouldn't give him that. Curiously, he reached into his pants pocket to see if he had any smoke and was very pleased to lift out a enough for at least a blunt. which of course, was perfect for the night. So, he decided he needed a room...pretty much. Bed, shower, all that good stuff. He slowed down his mind enough to concentrate on that and paced the aisle in front of the wall. The door slowly shimmered into view in front of him and he disappeared into it. His room looked exactly like the dorm, minus the other beds, and his trunk.
His bottom landed on the bed, the rest of him fell back wards and he bounced a bit from the weight of his fall. It was like a crumbling of his conscious as he lay with his arms spread wide, a zippo lighter in one hand and the blunt on the other. His fingers fumbled over the former, flipping the lid open and closing it again. Over and over. His vision began to blur from how far deep he was in thought. Finally the drug hit his lips, a silver flash and the flame was against the tip. The smoke burned, but it tasted good. He held it in for for a second before it left him a rush and he finished with a small cough. He was glad that he didn't try and hack up a lung every time he inhaled now. His muscles started to relax and he sat up, took about two more hits and crushed the cherry with his fingers, tucking it back into his pocket.
"See, that's the thing about love...damn I need something to drink..." he spoke to air and sat up, looking down at the floor. A glass of water appeared and he grinned. "Ask and you shall receive." he picked it up, taking a few sips before going back into what he'd wanted to say out loud. Personal therapy. "That's the thing. You do something and you think at that point it's a great idea! Then it turns out to be a shite idea. Then you feel bad, because really...I don't even know what I'm talking about." dark brows perked up on the pale face and he touched his lips. The expression changed from surprise to curiosity as it dawned on him. "Oh...bloody hell. Why did I kiss him? Well I know why I kissed him..(he felt like he was mad as a hatter at this point, by the way.)" He lept from the bed and paced around the room.
"He knows why as well. I need to learn where boundaries are I think. No. Actually, I like my boundaries just fine. WHY AM I TALKING TO MYSELF? Oh who cares. I'm alone anyways. So. How do I fix this? Is it even fixable is the real question." he eventually came to the conclusion that he would stay the night here, go to all his classes and what not on the morrow. Then the next night..well, he'd have to fetch some clothes and such, necessities and all. Of course, he would do everything he could to muster up the strength to avoid Daniel at any cost and if that meant he'd have to use some poor girl...he would. Then he'd stay the night again in the room of requirement. Give Daniel some time to calm down a bit, maybe give him the chance to apologize.
He was pulled out of his thoughts by the sound of glass falling over, it startled him but he leaned down to pick up and put it on a nightstand, the water conveniently dried on it's own and he whispered a sorry to the room about the spill and flopped back down on the bed, unable to fight the sudden exhaustion that had taken a hold of him. He crawled under the sheets and his last thought was of Daniel's face after he planted that kiss on his lips.
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