Behind the crimson door. [Evan/Daniel]

[DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES]

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. i can see you stalking like a predator ,
i've been here before, temptation calls like adam to the apple
But I will not be caught, Cause I can read those velvet eyes
. all i see is lies, killing my emotion, i will not be frozen, dancing is my remedy !
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Waking up the next morning with a start Daniel sat up instantly to see where he even was. Still half asleep, the Slytherin male yawned rubbing his eyes leaning his back against the wall behind him stretching his legs out as far as they could. After a few seconds he stopped rubbing his eyes moving his hands to rest on the cool floor on either side of him. Closing his eyes he leaned his head back too quickly hitting his head on the wall with a quiet thump. "Shit." He said rubbing the back of his head. Turning his head side to side he side. He always ended up here and it seemed to be his new favorite spot when him and Evan would fight. He didn't know why he was being so cruel towards Evan, he had told himself he wouldn't let this get in the way of their friendship, yet that's exactly what he was doing. "But I can't love Evan! Can I?" He said quickly to himself before looking around to make sure no one had heard him.

Giving himself a boost off the ground he stuffed his hands in his pockets keeping his eyes on the floor as he slowly made his way back to the Slytherin dorms. He needed to change his clothes, he'd had a long day yesterday and he didn't even know what time it was or when he'd fallen asleep. He just knew he passed out and now was suddenly back among the living and Evan was nowhere to be found. Sighing a little he glanced up muttering the words to get into the Slytherin common room before quickly making his way to his dorm room ignoring everyone else in the room and whatever it was they had to say. Opening the door to the dorm, Daniel sucked in a deep breath swinging it open only to find the room completely empty. Where were the other roommates lately? It felt like forever since he'd seen anyone but Evan. "Damn you Evan." Was all he could muster up, he wanted to hate Evan to beat him up beyond recognition, but he knew he never would. He couldn't. Evan was one of the best friends anyone could ask for and Daniel knew he was throwing that all away. But he couldn't help it. There was too much that had happened since Evan kissed him what seemed like forever ago.

Walking slowly into the room he willed Evan to stay out of the Slytherin common room and stay wherever he was. Changing his clothes, Daniel ran his fingers quickly through his hair before turning heading back out to the common room and ultimately back into the halls of Hogwarts castle. Taking a few deep breaths he put his usualy smirk on as he made his way down to the Great Hall. Whatever time it was, Daniel knew he was hungry. His stomach was growling and there would be no concentrating on any classes if that was going on. As he walked into the Great Hall, he heard whispers coming from all the tables and he did his best to shrug it off sitting down next to Richard. "My good old buddy Richard!" He said enthusiastically grabbing some food and some apple juice from the middle of the table ignoring Richards' confused look. "What are you looking at twat? Eat. We have a class to be to soon." He said doing anything in his power to keep Evan out of his mind. Taking a few bites he continued to ignore everyone around him but Richard, who wasn't even really talking anyway.

Richard was the sort of quiet fellow, which didn't bother Daniel. Sometimes people talked too much and Richard was the complete opposite. Shaking his head a little he took another bite quickly. Was he thinking so much about Richard because he knew if he didn't Evan would somehow manage to work back into his attention span? 'Damn you Evan. What the bloody hell have you done to me? He thought to himself angrily as he closed his eyes taking a deep breath. He had totally forgotten Evan would be in most of his classes being the same year and the same house. Rubbing his hand against his forehead he grunted. "Why me? Why me?" He said almost ignoring Richard as he started his own talk of self hate.

These were the times that Daniel knew Richard was the perfect friend for him. Daniel was the talked and Richard would just sit there and listen to him without really ever saying anything. But Daniel couldn't seem to get the balls to outright thank his friend for everything he'd done. Richard was still a twat, that wasn't going to change no matter what. Almost as if to prove him wrong, Daniel looked over at his friend as he began to speak. "You should really slow down when you eat Daniel." He said in his normal speaking voice. Narrowing his eyes a little, Daniel for once listened to him and slowed down so he was no longer inhaling his food. "What's got you so worked up this time?" He continued. Rolling his eyes Daniel chugged his entire goblet and sighed. "You can't tell me you haven't heard? Especially being a Slytherin. I know you're not the social type, seriously some people don't even know you exist. But still, you had to have heard." He said sarcastically. "Well, it's about you and Evan dating, right?"

Leaning his head down on the table Daniel lightly hit his forehead against it a few times. "Even the invisible cunt over here knows! How does news travel so fast here?" He said getting a little more upset by the second. Richards' wide eyes and glances around told Daniel that he was drawing unnecessary attention to himself again which quickly made him stop. "And we're not dating. Not even close. Evan loves me. LOVES me. How? How am I supposed to love him back? Twat you're supposed to be helping me in this situation!" He said angrily throwing a piece of toast back on his plate. As he stared at his plate he began to wonder what it was that was going through Evan's mind at all. Really, did he really love Daniel? Could he love Evan back? Closing his eyes he rubbed the bridge of his nose angrily.

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. spin me faster like a kaleidoscope ,
all i've got's the floor, but yeah you can try
I've found the antidote, music is the cure.
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tagged to: Evan / word count: 747 / wearing: School robes / notes: Slytherin common room and Daniel loves his own cock. / header image to: Me / lyrics: little boots / template by: COMMUNIST DAUGHTER?! @ CAUTION 2.0

[EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER]

My ship went down, in a sea of sound.
When I woke up alone I had everything;
A handful of moments, I wished I could change,
And a tongue like a nightmare, that cut like a blade

Evan awoke to the sound of his own heavy breathing, his hand was squashed against his face and he was disturbed to find that he'd even drooled a bit. He shook out his arm to wake it up and as the pins and needles started he stood from the bed with a loud groan. "Merlin's beard..." he mumbled, yawning and stumbling into the makeshift bathroom. He kept his mind on lock down, picturing nothing but a white sheet of paper. He didn't want to think about anything..at all, ever again. What a way to start the day. He finished up his business of dressing into his school robes and gathering up his things. He wanted food but he didn't want to go into the Great Hall. Instead, he traversed down to the kitchen by his lonesome and thankfully, was allowed in once he came up with an on the spot lie about needing to study and not being able to do so in the Great Hall. The kind elves made him toast with jam and eggs, then handed him a mug of pumpkin juice. "Thank you." he said softly, gulping it down. He rinsed off the dishes out of courtesy, before heading out.

Thanks to the food, his mind took over. He hated thinking. He really did. As he walked the crowding corridors he thought of the past two days with an indifference. All his feeling had been drained from the night before apparently. When his subconscious had stewed over the events of it's own accord, riddling his dreams with disturbing images. "EVAN!" his name echoed off the walls and he turned, raising a brow. It was Elladora Guffy, and she was holding a book in her hand. "Yeah?" he inquired as she approached, his hands tucking into his pockets. She held said book out to him and he took it. "You dropped this." then she went on her merry way and he mumbled thanks, tucking it back into the khaki bag. Class would begin within the hour, he duly noted, and headed off in that direction.

In a city of fools, I was careful and cool,
But they tore me apart, like a hurricane.
A handful of moments, I wished I could change,
But I was carried away.

He arrived at the door, to find a group of whispering girls. "Here we go.." his voice was a mere murmur, only to be heard by him. He leaned against the wall a few feet away with a hand pressed to his forehead. He needed an escape. Honestly. His usual one was ruined by him and him alone. He knew was the only one to blame in this situation. He glanced up because there was a giggle from one of the three and then the blond shoved another of the same hair color in his direction. His brows raised up, arms crossed over his chest as she approached with a dreamy grin. "Hi." she sighed up at him. He smirked in response and cocked his head to the side. "Hey there." he added a wink. He couldn't help the charm, it was just natural. Also got him an arseload of trouble most of the time. They bantered back and forth for a few more minutes, he learned that she was a sixth year Slytherin, single and obviously looking for something he could offer.

The trouble was, if he was really up for it. He didn't want to make any promises. The devil on his shoulder (the only one he listened to, obviously) told him it was fine. Told him that was the escape he needed. He didn't tell her any of this, instead he set up a way to meet her and she returned to her group of friends. "Mistake..after bloody mistake." he sighed, reached into his bag and pulled out a medium sized book, his journal. He'd started writing them when he was much younger and it simply stuck. He realized this was a very girly thing to do, but he didn't care. He felt that if he ever died, at least someone would find them and people would know about his life. Hopefully, they'd learn from his outright mess ups and not do the same thing. Those were not his words though. Petunia had said that to him once late one night while they were talking by the lake.

Dear journal,

Good morning. What am I doing? Oh that's right! I'm being me. Am I happy with this? Unsure. Will I keep doing it? Absolutely. Besides, when am I ever happy? What does that word even mean. Ridiculous emotion if you ask me. It's safe to say that I'm stuck again. You'll probably see those words many more times. Trust me. I know you won't trust me, but that's okay. Because I don't even trust me and that's just sad. I'm waiting outside of Arithmancy, and quite frankly dreading the next hour. To be honest, I'd much rather be out of here. Away from all these people, with their high and might air of confidence. Where I can be alone in my own self loathing. Wow. I'm depressing. See you later...time to go in.

Evan.

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The girl, Andrea, beckoned for him to take a seat next to her and he did. Only because if he didn't, he'd have to sit next to Daniel. And that just wouldn't work, would it? Not at all. He couldn't believe that one small comment had made his entire world turn upside down. He found himself constantly wondering why he'd ever spoken to anyone in the first place. Being human it was easy to understand the need for companionship, but he wished he been born without it. Or knew how to block it. As the classroom began to fill, his eyes wandered the desks. Then again, they didn't have to. He knew Daniel's schedule like he knew his own name. He hated himself for wanting to be around him, wanting to hear his voice. He distracted himself by sweet talking Andrea. His fingers brushed her cheek lightly and he grinned at the blush. The grin was as empty as his gaze and his hand dropped back into his lap.

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty,
But I'm smiling at everything.
Therapy, you were never a friend to me,
And you can keep all your misery.[/b]

Lyrics: Therapy - All Time Low[/center]

[DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES]

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. i can see you stalking like a predator ,
i've been here before, temptation calls like adam to the apple
But I will not be caught, Cause I can read those velvet eyes
. all i see is lies, killing my emotion, i will not be frozen, dancing is my remedy !
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Lifting his head from the table Daniel let out a very dramatic sigh banging his head once on the table. He knew he had class, a class that he usually sat next to Evan in. But today, that wasn't going to happen. Sighing again he looked back at Richard. Just thinking about having to deal with Evan made him completely lose his appetite. With how loud they were fighting in the halls, everyone had to have known what was going on. Was he ready for that? Was Evan even ready for that? Banging his head on the table again he felt his forehead going numb from the constant collision with the table. He didn't want to have to deal with anything. It was making his carefree life increasingly harder to live.

Taking a deep breath and looked at his friend"Twat. You're sitting next to me today and I swear if you say anything, I'll punch you. That's right, I'll get violent with you! You should be afraid for that!" He said quickly grabbing his things and grabbing his friend by the collar dragging him from his unfinished breakfast. "I feel like a girl who is going to see her ex for the first time since they broke up. Bloody hell what is wrong with me?" He asked completely ignoring Richard's attempts to get away from his grip and just continued to drag him down the hallway until he gave up completely.

Walking down the halls quickly, he ignored people talking finally releasing his grip on Richard. People could probably tell he wasn't his usual careless self. 'Wait, why do I care what they think? I'm still just me. The Daniel Hughes who doesn't care about a single other person on the face of this bloody Earth!' He thought angrily to himself as he continued down the hall overly silent. He was never this quiet. Never. Even talking to Evan he wasn't this quiet. So why was everything bugging him so much all of a sudden? Shaking his head he ran his hands through his poofy curly hair angrily. Richard must have noticed because he got that stupid look he always got. "Daniel.. I don't think.." He started to say before Daniel shook his head. "We don't talk right now." He said trying to think a little more before having to actually to face him.

Getting around the last corner before the classroom, Daniel turned quickly looking up to see Evan flirting with a girl a few feet away. Stopping instantly his eyes widened as he just stared at the two. Evan, not seeming to notice him wandered into the classroom as Daniel was frozen in his spot. A sudden holt of jealousy work its way through his body. Looking around for a second he started walking towards the classroom keeping his eyes glued to the floor as he threw his stuff on the table with a loud and audible thud. Sitting down he buried his face in his hands for a brief second moving his hands through his hair letting out a groan. 'Why am I like this? Last night I would have killed to have Evan not like me. I was wishing for it.' He thought to himself getting angrier and angrier by the second.

Looking up, he half expected Evan to be sitting next to him with a random "Hey! I was kidding! I don't love you and I don't like that girl!" But when he looked up he was disappointed to see Richard sitting cautiously next to him just staring in his usual creepy manner. Rolling his eyes he looked around the room just in time to see Evan touch the girls cheek. "Slut." He muttered under his breath, though he wasn't keeping it a secret. Part of him wanted to get up and just punch Evan. Ask him what sort of joy he was getting out of messing with him. Every second more he sat staring at Evan flirt with this girl, he felt as if something inside of him was being torn apart. Daniel didn't even know why he was feeling like this. He didn't know how he even felt about Evan loving him, though now it seemed as if it was all a joke. At that moment, his mind went back to the moment Evan pressed his lips to his. Looking away for a brief second he glanced back to see Evan's hand drop to his lap.

A smirk started to play at his lips before he realized what was happening. Shaking his head he stood up quickly obviously startling Richard. Pushing his chair back he didn't care about the loud noise it made as it fell back and hit the floor. Grabbing his bad he looked one last time at Evan shaking his head. "Way to fuck with people Evan. Very funny. You got me this time. Richard, I'll see you later" He said ignoring everyone else around grabbing his bag turning and walking quickly out of the room shaking his head. He knew that action would probably kick him in the butt, but at this moment in time, Daniel could care less what happened. All the time he'd spent by himself the last few nights had been driving him insane. The one person he talked to that really could get to him and always did get to him, was ignoring him and hitting on girls like nothing happened. Daniel had always been the one to do that, he didn't care when he broke a girls' heart. He just wanted one thing and that was well known throughout Hogwarts. But this, this felt different. As Daniel stormed out of the room, he knew he looked like a jealous girl seeing the guy she had a crush on flirting with another girl. Something inside Daniel had snapped, he'd never felt this before.

Walking down the halls he ignored every passerby that tried to stop him even walking past professors ignoring their annoyed calls of telling Daniel to get back to class. There was no way he was going back in there. He'd never been the jealous type and now here he was storming down the hallways of Hogwarts running from the one thing in this world that could make him jealous. Keeping his eyes fixed on the ground in front of him he took a deep breath. If there was one time in his entire life that he wanted to find the Room of Requirement, it would be right now. But he had no idea how that worked, he ignored Evan when he'd talked about it. Right now Daniel couldn't even go to the Astronomy Tower, people knew he went up there now. Looking around he found a dark corner off in an abandoned corrider and instantly threw his bag into the dark. Following it he leaned against the wall taking a few deep breaths as he closed his eyes leaning his head back until it hit the wall with a soft thud.

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. spin me faster like a kaleidoscope ,
all i've got's the floor, but yeah you can try
I've found the antidote, music is the cure.
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[EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER]

Evan shot out of his chair so fast that he nearly hit Andrea in the face. He didn't even mumble an apology as he crashed into their professor on the way out. He knew Daniel was fast and if he didn't get to him soon, there would be absolutely more hell than their already was. What the hell was he thinking? He could have punched himself in the eye. Of course Daniel would be pissed. The real question, however, is did he want that?

Part of him did, because then it meant that he was more important to Daniel than he thought he was, the other part didn't because that always held consequences for them. They grew apart and yet together at the same time when they argued. It was weird. There was a wall there but it was fading into invisibility. It was a bloody contradiction. He was so confused. His feet pounded down the corridors, before he collapsed against the wall.

It wasn't like him to give up so easily but the worry just wouldn't fuel him. He slid down, looking up at the ceiling, panting heavily. "Son of a.." he mumbled, trying to breathe deeply. His hands rubbed his face, and when he looked at them he groaned loudly. He'd forgotten about the artwork. He took another minute, staring down at the bag by his side thinking quietly. He was taking every chance he could get, much like the man he knew he wasn't and could never be.

Grasping for straw used to be easy, but now there were so few to grasp for. He needed to straighten up soon or he'd lose everything. A voice called out to him from down the hall, it was one he hadn't heard properly in a while. "Evan Rosier!" it was none other than Petunia Evans. Evan instantly sat up straighter, staring at her a bit wide eyed.

"Uhm...hey." he lifted a smeared hand in a wave and she stared at him before looking around. "What are you doing?" he felt the condescending tone in her voice and winced, shaking his head. She took a moment to look around and sat down next to him. He stayed quiet, resting his chin in his hands. The silence was deafening but he knew what was coming next.

"I know that look Evan. You had it chasing me once. What have you gotten yourself into?" He shook his head, looking away. He couldn't talk to her. Hell, he didn't deserve the nice treatment. She went on to say, "Fine. If you won't tell me, I know you wrote it down." at this point she grabbed the book from his bag. He didn't try to stop her, just watched as she flipped through the pages of all his thoughts and memories.

After she finished reading the book was closed and placed back where it belonged before her eyes met his face. "Get up, Evan. You can do better than this. Sitting here instead of looking harder. Just because you got denied you're not going to keep fighting? You fought me for a long time before you stopped. Don't be a wuss now." his jaw dropped and he blinked a few times, raising his brows.

"Daniel is completely different from you! He's...just...I don't know. I don't wanna mess up. But every time I think I'm doing a good thing by trying to move onto something else, I get set back because well, I don't wanna move on. I stopped with you because I knew it was for the better. Everything is telling me I can't be with anyone else when it comes to him. I'm a filthy liar. I promised a girl I'd meet her somewhere tonight and my stomach is churning at the idea of even looking at her. He saw the flirt, he can't see inside my head."

He paused for a breath and she touched his shoulder to indicate she was listening, because by this time he was staring at the wall across from them. "If I tell him that, he'll think I'm insane. I already have, in a way. Maybe I didn't explain everything but I gave him the biggest part of it. It's weird because we're friends and I'm supposed to be a wing man. I've taken one for the team too many times. Watched as he was fawned over and wished that I could just jump down those people's throats for the way they looked at him. I look at him that way. I don't know, Petunia. I'm fighting a losing battle. I came to a wand fight wielding a wooden spoon..or something."

At this, she hit him in the arm. "Shut up Rosier, you're stronger than that. Get your arse up and find that boy. I know you can fix this. You already know you have to and that's the only weapon you need. You're conscience. It doesn't make a show often but when it does, you change things for the better. I have to go. Wish you all the best." she got up and reached out a hand to help him up, and then gave him a quick hug, heading off in the opposite direction. He watched after her smiling softly before shouldering his bag and beginning his search again.

tagged to: Daniel
word count: 889
wearing: School robes
notes: =O TUNI?! I'll get you, Daniel!
lyrics: Linkin Park's - Leave Out All The Rest
template by: KERO at CAUTION 2.0

[DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES]

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. i can see you stalking like a predator ,
i've been here before, temptation calls like adam to the apple
But I will not be caught, Cause I can read those velvet eyes
. all i see is lies, killing my emotion, i will not be frozen, dancing is my remedy !
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Daniel Hughes exhaled in a long, loud sigh. It seemed as if his world had come crashing completely down around him. "Isn't that a little dramatic?" He asked himself as he leaned his body heavily against the wall. He had never been more jealous in his life that he was right now. Storming out of his classroom after seeing Evan, possibly the only person outside of his family that he ever loved, flirting with some girl. Daniel normally wouldn't have cared about Evan flirting, but this time it made something inside Daniel shatter. He felt as if his his heart had been ripped from his chest and thrown on the floor. In his mind, he lost the battle to keep Evan interested him.

Closing his eyes tightly he lifted his nose to the ceiling taking in a sharp breath tightening his brows. There was no way he was going to cry. Daniel didn't cry, he didn't even know how to cry, how to deal with that type of thing. This wasn't changing now because of Evan. Slowly sliding down the wall he pulled his knees to his chest cupping his face in his hands. He wanted to just sit and feel sorry for himself. Why did things have to change? Why can't things just always stay how they were when everyone was happy? Quickly looking up the realization hit Daniel as if a Quidditch team had just rammed into him like her was a quaffle and they were behind in the score.

He'd barely ever admitted to himself that he knew what the world love even meant. But here he was, admitting that he loved Evan, his wingman. His best friend, well other than that twat Richard. But that was besides the point. Evan and Danile had always worked together to seduce girls so they could get them back to bed. Both of them had always worked together just for those one night stands then ignored the lucky girl until they felt the need to seduce her again. Daniel had never honestly thought of Evan of more than a wingman, his personal best friend. But ever since a few nights ago, all he could think of was Evan and how he wanted to be closer to him. To possibly try to get over their own problems, possibly together.

Moving to find his bag that he had carelessly thrown in his haste of hiding. As he moved his hands searching along the ground the sound of footsteps stopped him in his tracks before leaning his back against the wall. Peeking around the corner he saw Evan, a small smile worked its way across his lips as he saw him. "He came after me..." He whispered softly to himself before the confusion took over his body. If he was coming to look for him, why was he flirting with that girl? Was Evan trying to make him jealous? That couldn't be it. Seeing another figure coming towards and calling out to Evan, he quickly hid behind the wall keeping his breathing soft. He recognized the voice immediately the be one of Evan's past loves, Petunia Evans. Another jolt of jealousy flooded through him as he listened to her sit next to him.

Furrowing his brows he leaned his ear as close as he could to the corner so he could hear them clearly. Was she....? She was giving him advice on how to get him. He.. was trying to move on. Suddenly Daniel just wanted her to go away. He needed to talk to Evan. He still believed that Evan shouldn't have done that, but it made so much more sense now. Daniel started to sigh in relief before covering his mouth so he wouldn't be heard. He felt like a huge weight had been lifted from his shoulders, he felt... happier? Yeah, that was it, he felt happier.

Moving his thoughts back to Evan he smiled a little at the thought of Evan not wanting to mess up. Suddenly he heared Petunia saying she had to go, that he should try. Daniel wanted to turn the corner and yell that Evan wasn't fighting a losing battle. That no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't get him our of his head. Daniel's eyes widened as he realized, he wanted to kiss Evan. He wanted to reply that moment when Evan kissed him over and over in his mind. It was real, Evan wasn't messing with him like he had thought. Evan truly loved Daniel and now Daniel wasn't sure he could give him what he wanted. But he wanted to try.

Glancing around the corner he saw Petunia disappearing and Evan standing there, possibly deciding which way he should continue his search. Before any more thoughts could intrude and take away his rationality, Daniel hurried around the corner grabbing Evan tightly pushing him against the wall and pressed his lips to Evan's without hesitation. After a second he pulled back looking at the ground. "I wanted to get revenge for you taking me off guard." He said quietly, he couldn't even look Evan in the eye.

As he thought of what to say next, Daniel couldn't even think straight. He had no idea what he could even say. He knew he couldn't date Evan, not yet. He was barely admitting to himself that there were even feelings, but he couldn't be with Evan. Sighing heavily he took a deep breath in as he looked up and moved his eyes past Evan's head. "Evan, I can't give you the love that you seem to have for me. I don't know how to give that kind of thing. I don't even know where to start." He started, talking a little faster than he normally did. Was he... nervous? Daniel quickly shook the thought out of his mind.

"Don't talk about this as a losing battle.. Because then it'll feel like I'm fighting one too and I don't like to lose. I won't lose." He knew he should calm down, but Daniel wasn't so good at being calm, especially in new situations. Shaking his head he took a step back releasing Evan, he'd completely forgotten he was pushing him against the wall not even caring about the mess on the wall now. "I just... Evan I don't even know. Three days ago the thought of loving you would have made me laugh in someone's face. Three days ago! And now the thought of losing you makes me sick to my stomach." He said as he lowered his eyes back to the ground. "I don't know how to go about this sort of thing, I've never had to think of something with someone going overnight, to another day. To another week. I didn't even know it was possible for guys like us. Is it even possible?" Blushing he'd noticed he had started thinking out loud. Stuffing his hands in his pockets he kicked at the ground.

He'd never liked change, he'd never been good at dealing with change. Especially when he was happy. The realization that had hit him earlier made him realize that things had to change, especially because it was obvious that not everyone was happy. Daniel had been ignorant to Evan's unhappiness. The thought of Evan being unhappy made him want the change to come even faster, he wanted Evan happy. He knew Evan hadn't had the easiest life, none of them had. Evan deserved it. He should have noticed, but he was too busy getting girls to fall for him to notice the person who could change his life, was the one helping him get these girls. "Evan, can I ask you something?" He started before wondering if this was a mistake.

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. spin me faster like a kaleidoscope ,
all i've got's the floor, but yeah you can try
I've found the antidote, music is the cure.
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tagged to: Evan / word count: 1313 / wearing: School robes / notes: Evan, I love you. I can't tell you this.. But I love you. Also, I got carried away. I'm sorry lol / header image to: Me / lyrics: little boots / template by: COMMUNIST DAUGHTER?! @ CAUTION 2.0

[EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER]

It seemed to Evan that Daniel had a way with things and that maybe they both had a type of radar for each other, in the sense that when one was looking for the other it wouldn't take them very long to find the person. It was funny, really. So when Evan was all of a sudden shoved against the nearest wall and pinned there, he wasn't surprised. However, when the kiss hit him he might have fallen over if he hadn't have been held. It was short, not exactly sweet but it happened. He couldn't talk, really didn't want to because he knew he needed to hear exactly what his potentional love had to say.

He breathed slowly in and out, watching every move his fellow Slytherin made. It was hard not to watch Daniel even when he was doing the simplest of things. As he spoke about change, about battles, and everything else; Evan relaxed against said wall and rubbed his face. "You're not alone." he murmured. There was nothing else he could say, really. How could he possibly respond to speil of feelings and even though he'd been going on about his own he never really stopped to think about had Daniel was handling it all.

He had, but only in passing. Which was selfish but it was he who he was. He could change himself, but he wasn't sure if he wanted to be anyone else but himself. The neurons in his brain were firing off rapidly, sending images through his head of the chaos of the past three days. It was hard to believe it had only been that long when in all reality it felt like months of waiting, even years of trouble. He'd been all over the place, unable to keep himself in one spot long enough to just stop and take a breath.

As the sort of one-sided conversation wound down, he pulled himself from the wall and srtraightened his clothing and hair in a mechanical motion, not because he really cared about his outrward appearence at the moment, it was habit. "Ask away." the reply was quiet due to his curiousity. As he waited for the question his brain still ran through the events like a record stuck on skip. The feelings curling through his chest were confusing and wearing him thin around the edges. He really needed to work on himself...eventually. Procastination was a horrible condition, really.

His hands tucked into the flowing robes that draped his body, his eyes were expectant upon Daniel's face. He was curious about the previously spoken question which made his head try to discern what kind of question it would be and how exactly to respond. He made his brain stop working by picturing a simple white sheet. This whole situation was more than he expected but he should have known it wouldn't have been easy. Life was never easy and obviously love was going to be the same way.

Tagged: Daniel
Wearing: School Robes, duh.
Word Count: 497 =O TINY! NUU!)
Location: Random Hallway?
Notes: Daniel, I love you too. DAMNIT. It's okay. I wish I got carried away lol.
lyrics: Linkin Park's - Leave Out All The Rest
template by: KERO at CAUTION 2.0

[DANIEL KELLAN HUGHES]

IMAGE GOES HERE YEAHHH?
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. i can see you stalking like a predator ,
i've been here before, temptation calls like adam to the apple
But I will not be caught, Cause I can read those velvet eyes
. all i see is lies, killing my emotion, i will not be frozen, dancing is my remedy !
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Watching Evan carefull Daniel began to pace back and forth up and down the short distance of the hallway. Pacing always helped clear his mind, it always helped. But, right now in this moment, it was only making his anxiety sky rocket. Groaning he turned back to Evan running his fingers through his curly hair rough enough to feel himself pulling some out. He couldn't bring himself to care as he dropped his hand back to his side shaking the loose hairs off like they were a disease. Daniel was freaking out enough that he barely heard what Evan had said, he wasn't sure if he was still passed out in the astronomy tower. Part of him wanted to just wake up and all of this be a terrible, terrible dream.

Even Daniel knew that wasn't going to happen. All of this had been far to real to be a dream. The fighting, the yelling, the tension, the random kisses that they had both managed to sneak in, it was all too real. Much to his dismay, this wasn't a dream and never would be. He actually would have to deal with this. As he stood there, he could feel the anxiety slowly leaving his body as he looked Evan in the eye. Slowly, his body was relaxing and his hands relaxed, releasing the tight fists he'd been holding there only a moment before. Closing his eyes for a moment he sucked in a deep breath trying to calm himself even more before he started rambling on and on again like he just had. "Take control of yourself you stupid twat.' He said quickly to himself before opening his eyes waiting as they focused on Evan's face.

Taking a few steps closer to Evan he stopped before he was close enough to touch. Even though there were a million questions in his head flying around stinging the every part of his brain, there was one that stung particularly worse than all the others. Sighing softly he absentmindedly rubbed the bridge of his nose between his pointer finger and thumb. "Where do we go from here? How..."

[/color] He trailed off dropping his hand helplessly back to his side limply. "How do we deal with this. We'll kill each other Evan, we both know that."[/color] He said softly trying to hide the fear in his eyes even though he knew he was failing miserably. Everything was too much right now, he no longer had the energy to hide his emotions from Evan and the thought scared him more and more each second he thought about it.

Moving away from Evan he leaned back against the wall sliding down heavily not removing his eyes from Evan's. His entire body wouldn't quit shaking, no matter how hard he tried, he just couldn't stop shaking. His entire world was being thrown around like a ragdoll. How could he keep this up? Evan and him? He couldn't quite wrap his mind around the fact that Evan was in love with him. Daniel... still wasn't completely sure he could love him back. Yet the thought of Evan with Andrea made the rage he was finally getting rid of come right back and fill him. "Why'd you have to flirt with the slut?"[/color] He asked his eyes narrowing before giving up on being angry leaning his head back against the wall finally breaking the eye contact he'd been clinging to this whole time with a defeated sigh.
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. spin me faster like a kaleidoscope ,
all i've got's the floor, but yeah you can try
I've found the antidote, music is the cure.
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tagged to: Evan / word count: no idea / wearing: School robes / notes: What the heck was I gonna ask... haha forgot. / header image to: Me / lyrics: little boots / template by: COMMUNIST DAUGHTER?! @ CAUTION 2.0

[EVAN NICOLAS ROSIER]

The pacing was watched as well, every step carefully measured by the eyes that longed to look upward. Evan could have pulled his hair out too, but he kept his hands at his sides. Every moment was crucial. One mis-step and they could be chasing each other around the halls once again. They both seemed to have to have the last word when they argued; which was all good and well. It didn't help anything though, just made it worse. His mind digressed and soon enough he reigned it back to the present.

He wished it was a dream as well. Wished he could back. Wishing was for dreamers, which Evan wasn't. He was more of a realist. Right then and there, that was real. He saw the situation clearly, for what it was. It was a mess. A screwed up, mixed around, jumbled up pot of mess. They were both male jiggalos, pretty much. The two pieces couldn't fit, but he'd be damned if he didn't break them trying to make them fit. He was never good with puzzles, anyway. Evan gazed back at the eyes that watched him and his tension melted as well. It was hard to keep up a fight with Daniel.

"I don't know." That was always the answer, wasn't it? I. Don't. Know; because he didn't know. Didn't want to know. It was a contradiction because on one hand he absolutely had to...on the other he wanted to run and forget it ever happened. Transfer somewhere else, something. Yeah, running away fixed everything. People said it was a small world and really, it was. What would happen if he ran and later, he saw the boy in front of him in a shop, a resturaunt, anywhere? Chaos. That was the thing about love, it never really went away. Evan saw the fear and chose not to acknowledge it for the simple fact that he just couldn't. He was afraid too. Which seemed to be happening a lot more as of late.

Still, his eyes watched. Like a hawk, even when the eye contact was broken. "I thought it would get my mind off you. Maybe if I went around with someone else I could just get rid of all this going on inside me. Maybe a new scandal would come about and everyone would forget about what I said, what I've done to not just your reputation but mine. Get it back..something. The problem is, it didn't help. Flirting is no means to an end, I can see that. I just..." he trailed off and began his own form of repetitive motion. His fingers tapped three quick times against his leg. Finally, he looked down.

"I'm not really sure how we go about this Daniel." he murmured, chewing on his lower lip in a feverish manner, finger still tapping. It was like a drumming, and it began just above his eyebrow. A sharp throbbing pain. He ignored it, however and glanced through his lashes. "Where do you want to go from here?"



Tagged to: Daniel // Word count: Iunno. // Wearing: School Robes // Comments: I found the color panel! =D // lyrics: Linkin Park's - Leave Out All The Rest // template by: KERO at CAUTION 2.0

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